I have been thinking about monogamy and if it’s a purely romantic ideology or if it’s something completely against our animalistic desires and behaviors society has tried to label as sinful? I sometimes envision myself married with children, and living a nice life consisting of lots of travel, and art. I envision having a glass or two of wine as my children play in a bright backyard full of flowers. Some white, some mixed with pink. But is that vision driven by monogamy? Does monogamy truly create long lasting bonds? The possibility of being in love with one person for the rest of your life sounds so beautiful. The idea that two people can create a bond that lasts for a lifetime. That even if the passion has burned away, the true love created between those two will remain. I start thinking of this then look at my track record. I look at my loves, my lusts and my losses, and I admit to myself that maybe I’m one of those creatures that is in love with love. That perhaps part of me does believe in this ideology of Monogamy, but at the same time I constantly crave the feeling of new love. That feeling of brand new, those butterflies and that excitement of feeling that this new love will possibly be greater and more meaningful than the last. There must be a reason why every man I have loved has always felt as If he was my first love. Is it horrible to think that maybe monogamy is meant for an older age, in which options decrease, and love becomes more of companionship than anything else? That maybe your youth is designed to live out as many different love stories as one could? I talked to a girlfriend recently about the desire of a meaningful lustful relationship. The type of relationship that involves lots of sexual chemistry, and a strong mental connection as well, because it’s always nice to talk after sex. She tells me “But then you’ll fall in love”. Maybe she’s right, and I guess that’s what makes us different than animals. Eventually those desires, turn into feelings, and feelings can develop so strongly that we end up falling into a monogamous state of two people sharing everything. Lovers can become boyfriends, and boyfriends can become husbands. I guess the only option that remains is for how long we make it last? For how long until we get the itch? Do we make the choice of chasing the feeling of new or do we make the choice of reviving the old, with the hope it reminds us of how it felt when it was new?